Thursday, June 14, 2007
i've been browsing tru some of my friend's blogs.
and i think they do have the same problem as me.
i tot this would only happen when exams are round the corner.
please la it's holidays.
i know i've been enjoying too much. go out everyday.
but i just cannot accept the fact that i cannot go to the pit
just because of some lame reasons.
'kalau jantan ade ni seme mcm2 bole jadi'
eh fcuk la i do have normal brains.
and i guess YOU dono me well enuf as ur own daughter.
and it's a pit la sia not a chalet. chalet i understand ar.
this is just a pit. it's in the open. what can possibly happen?
parents. perents.parents.
and i've started reading books. since they wanted me to giler babi.
i did. 'see kakak bace buku.you english kalau pandai tk per'
yayayayayayaya. and so now i've started.
i know they have 9776241574 things on their mind.
but please i'm saving my own money for this pit.
and only god noes how much i'm really into this thangg.
so kakak wants to quit skool and work. then continue study.
but not in poly but in some private skools.
tu pon they don't understand inside out of my sister's feeling.
kalau dah tk de intrest. u can't force watt.
parents.parents.parents.
I PROMISE I'LL JUST DO MY BEST .
AND TRY TO FULFILL UR DREAMS .
BUT I CANNOT PROMISE YOU to give 100% respect .
cause no ones perfect. i know u did this out of anger.
and so do i have the right to do all this out of anger.
and can someone stop being a BATU API in the house.
i tot u would pity for me. but what happen ? u betray me from the back.
wat fuckk la.
kakak say jgn la kurang aja ngn nenek ngn mak. don't be like me.
as i say, I DID THAT OUT OF ANGER.
no ones perfect la. and TOO BAD i grow up to be a spoil kid or watt.
but u don hafto say ; MAK KAU PIARE ANAK LELAKI TK SUSAH MCM KAU.
in other werds ANAK POMPAN SLALU MCM SIAL KAN ?!
anak pompan seme bitch la. menyusahkan mak je.
i know u need alot of money ryte now to support nenek yg sakit tu.
and haf not much time left for her to live.
and abg is getting engage. u need thousands.
i know they work so hard but we kept on wasting money.
but all this is BLOOD la mak. we grow up having urs and ayah's blood.
so erm wat do u think ?
father's day coming ryte ? i think so. and so i hope for the best.
i'm left with ayah hu i dono weather can understand me inside out.
mak and nenek just dowan to sit down with me and talk as a an adult.
left with ayah.AYAH. AYAH. AYAH.
only god noes how i'm feeling ryte now.
sometimes i just feel like agreeing with kakak to leave them.
i mean leve the house.
since we're burden to them.
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11:07 PM
